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When 诱惑萝莉 alumna Ren茅e Stout was a student studying art in the late 1970s, she bought a gold pendant at the campus bookstore.

It measures just under a half-inch and features an engraving that is so microscopic that the words are nearly invisible to the naked eye.

The pendant reads 鈥淢y heart is in the work鈥� 鈥� Carnegie Mellon鈥檚 motto and words that have inspired Ren茅e鈥檚 art for more than four decades.

She鈥檚 held onto it all that time, considering it a talisman that looks over her and protects her long and expansive art career.

鈥淏eing an artist is scary and stressful,鈥� Ren茅e says. 鈥淏ut I鈥檓 a spiritual person, and once you lock onto a purpose, there鈥檚 something within you that, subconsciously or not, you figure out a way to stay on that path. I just know that I鈥檓 supposed to be an artist.鈥�

Engineer or Artist?

Based in Washington, D.C., Ren茅e, a Class of 1980 College of Fine Arts graduate with a bachelor鈥檚 degree in art, has exhibited her works all over the country.

Her career began with painting and branched out into sculpture, glass and mixed media. She describes herself as a 鈥渞ealist painter,鈥� but her canvases often contain abstract qualities, too.

Her most recent exhibit of paintings and sculpture, 鈥淣avigating the Abyss鈥� at MARC STRAUS gallery in New York City, explores her long-standing interest and research in African-based belief systems that have manifested throughout the African diaspora over centuries and continue today.

But at Schenley High School in Pittsburgh, where she was in the Scholars Program, she was on a very different path.

Recruited into a special program that aimed to increase diversity and representation in engineering, Ren茅e spent half of her school day in U.S. Steel鈥檚 electrical engineering department.

She didn鈥檛 like it.

Art, however, was something she always loved.

She remembers vividly scribbling on the toe of her Mary Jane shoes, while walking down the street. Her mother, Sara, never got mad and instead encouraged her.

鈥淪he understood the impulse to create because her own brother was a self-taught artist who drew on anything he got his hands on,鈥� Ren茅e says. 鈥淪he understood the creative mind and the need to make art. I was always doing art. I never not did art!鈥�

When she began at Carnegie Mellon as an art student, her initial feelings of being "in over her head" were short-lived once she realized that exposure to new art, creativity and ideas heightened her awareness and curiosity.

鈥淐arnegie Mellon helped me to understand that I must be highly disciplined and self-critical in a constructive way in order to hone my craft,鈥� Ren茅e says. 鈥淓ven today, I find myself using some of the 鈥榗hallenge exercises鈥� I learned in my art classes. I laugh when I recall how I often disliked and questioned some of those mandated exercises, only to have them suddenly 鈥榗lick鈥� for me 30 to 40 years later.鈥�

Her Self Is in the Work

Ren茅e鈥檚 artistic creations possess both analytical and introspective characteristics, and she believes her introspection is a result of her particular outlook on life.

鈥淚 have this way of looking at the world where I see things in terms of past, present, future. I鈥檝e realized that it鈥檚 an African philosophy,鈥� she says. 鈥淵ou must deal with the present, which is influenced by the past, and whatever you鈥檙e doing in the present will influence your future. I automatically self-assess this way.鈥�

Ren茅e was the first American to exhibit in the Smithsonian鈥檚 National Museum of African Art.

鈥淚 was so honored and still amazed that it happened,鈥� she says. 鈥淚t said to me that 鈥� in some way 鈥� the ancestors might be proud of me for choosing their traditions as a jumping off point to create art that鈥檚 influenced by their aesthetics and philosophy.鈥�

Over the years, she鈥檚 also received numerous awards and accolades, and in 2018, she was awarded a Lifetime Achievement Award from the Women鈥檚 Caucus for Art.

鈥淎s a descendent of African Americans, I鈥檓 creating art that I think that鈥檚 important to do, especially in an era of erasure,鈥� she says. 鈥淢y art is always about exposing what I see.鈥�

To help her do so, Ren茅e invented an alter ego. Fatima, an African American storytelling healer, appears throughout Ren茅e鈥檚 work. In her lifelong study of the African diaspora, she focused on the women who identified as healers 鈥� often midwives 鈥� who helped people in the community mentally, spiritually and physically.

鈥淲hen I created this character, I didn鈥檛 realize that she would become the protagonist of a story I was telling through my art,鈥� Ren茅e says. 鈥淓ach body of work felt like a chapter that I was telling in a bigger story.鈥�

Eventually, she perceived that Fatima wasn鈥檛 just the protagonist in her story, she was actually a way for Ren茅e to help herself achieve what she wanted in life.

鈥淚 did not want to be what society wanted me to be,鈥� she says. 鈥淪ociety imposes a ton of expectations on women, and we end up filling those expectations in various ways like marriage and motherhood. In time, I was able to see that Fatima was always the vehicle for me to project who she wanted to be 鈥� the person who gave me permission to be my authentic self.鈥�

And as for that tiny little pendant she bought on campus? It floats around her house.

Sometimes she wears it to shows, sometimes it stays home.

鈥淚t鈥檚 a mantra. Even though it鈥檚 associated with Andrew Carnegie 鈥� and his whole life was drastically different from mine 鈥� it still has the same meaning. Your heart is in your work. You believe in what you鈥檙e doing.鈥�